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Five 'Feral Gremlin' Hargreeves | ☂ ([personal profile] n5) wrote2019-03-02 05:26 pm

[ Open rp post + TFLN overflown]



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oldmanfive: (86 | Season 2)

[personal profile] oldmanfive 2020-09-16 06:03 pm (UTC)(link)
continued from here.
[After giving Rey a little bit of a heart attack at her place, both Fives know they need to talk. They're overdo for it really. However it is hard to have a conversation in the house when one or more of their siblings are interrupting them.

So it isn't surprising that they end up in the public library after hours. It's one of the familiar places that feels like a home away from home. Of course, the fact that it is not in ruins doesn't change the fact that it had been something of a home base during their days in the wasteland.

As they stand in the upper level wing of the empty building, Five glances over to the equations they wrote on the columns, when they had been drinking away their frustrations with Delores by their side. From the looks of it, they hadn't vanished even though they managed to change the timeline and the library hadn't painted over them yet.]


Hmm, I don't know if I find this comforting or not.

[ He says simply, reaching out to place a hand on one of the columns. ]
oldmanfive: (85 | Season 2)

[personal profile] oldmanfive 2020-09-16 09:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He sighs as he lets his hand drop away from the column. He can't help but nod in agreement, those carefully built walls they always held up to keep the others at bay were kind of useless on themselves. ]

I know and well our situation isn't exactly helping with that feeling.

[ He adds, its clear they are both feeling like outsiders even more so that there is two of them. He's already seen it in a singular look over at Rey's place. ]

We can't go getting jealous any time one of us spends time with one of our siblings. Jealousy won't take either of us any place good.

[ They both know this logically, but he feels it has to be said out loud for both their benefit. For better or worse, while this situation is going on, they are brothers too. ]
oldmanfive: (82 | Season 2)

[personal profile] oldmanfive 2020-09-16 10:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Welp he opened this floodgate himself, so he has to deal with the fall out, which is himself ranting to him over all the worries that he has also been considering. ]

I'm aware, how do you think I've been feeling anytime I am reminded of Disney World? You know that trip that I decidedly didn't take with our family? I literally thought I was losing my mind. That maybe the missing memories meant that I was actually fading after all...

[He inhales as he stops the rant. But it is pretty obvious that he already thought that the missing memories meant he was being erased. He's scared too. This is uncharted territory for both of them.]

So I get it, okay? I know they won't take it well if one of us vanish, but we can't pull away from them either. That just hurts them right now.

[ Obviously even together they don't have all the answers. He sighs, before glancing over to himself. ]

I'm tired, Five.
oldmanfive: (83 | Season 2)

[personal profile] oldmanfive 2020-09-16 11:42 pm (UTC)(link)
When has anything ever been easy for us? One stupid moment of pride and look where it got us?

[ There's such a mirthless humor in his eyes as he speaks. He knows they have been holding on to the dream of going back in time and saving their family and now that they have seemingly succeeded the floor is threatening to fall out from beneath them again. It's a hard pill to swallow.

The sad part here is that they would never really voice these worries to anybody else. It isn't lost on him even as his other self moves closer to him. He doesn't try to retreat from the gesture, seeing it for what it was, an attempt to offer some sort of comfort.]


I'm beginning to wonder how we are managing to function at this point. [ He snorts, though the amusement never really touches his eyes either. God, they are so fucked up and they both know it. ]

Oh we definitely do, but really when have we ever been able to sleep properly? Not since we were actually the age that we look like right now.

[ Sleep without all the nightmares haunting his dreams would be fabulous, but he's not sure that will ever happen for either of them. Without even realizing it, he leans his shoulder against his counterpart's shoulder. Just a reminder that they both exist and the conversation they are having isn't just another hallucination. ]
oldmanfive: (35 | Season 1)

[personal profile] oldmanfive 2020-09-17 10:48 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He inhales sharply at that. Deep down knows that to be true, but all the regret along with Reginald's voice in his head saying 'I told you so' like a broken record is hard to get over. ] Fuck, we were a prideful little shit and Reginald was the worse.

[ Honestly even if they hadn't jumped when they did, he couldn't see them not doing something equally brash later. It was like they had told Hazel, if they had stayed in their proper time, they probably would have ended up emotionally stunted man-children like many of their siblings.

He lets out a small laugh. Fuck, Hazel was right. It looked like they did need to grow up, since integrating back into having a life was an uphill battle on their best days.]


Well we've always been too stubborn to do anything less. [Stubbornness and the dream of saving their family had kept them going in an impossible situation. A thirteen year old, teaching himself how to survive in the worse possible conditions was a goddamn miracle.

For a second he is caught off guard when his other self wraps an arm around him, but he's far too tired to pull away. Instead allowing himself to be pulled down to a sitting position on the floor. Gods, they really were starved for human interaction, but the irony here was that they probably would fight against anyone else trying to offer either of them comfort. He finds himself chuckling again at what his other self is saying, but there is a warmth behind it. They did get something right at least.]


Christ, I did not expect that last one. Our girl really did aim high.

[ He can't help but crack a joke, just something is needed to break the tension that has been building since they started this conversation. ]
oldmanfive: (54 | Season 1)

[personal profile] oldmanfive 2020-09-17 11:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He snorts at the thought of the awful painting that Reginald commissioned. It also brings him the thought of Ben's statue and the inscription upon it. ]

No doubt, just as much of a reminder as Ben's statue in the courtyard had been.

[ He can't help but sigh at that. It took traveling to the past to get anything actually useful out of the old man, but even that had came at a price. At least all their siblings were now on the same page about their father being an asshole. He would count that as a victory too.]

Yeah, among other things. [ He says with a shrug, more than willing not to elaborate because he does remember that more than stubbornness got them to where they are, by all rights they should be dead by now. But they kept on surviving. Though sooner or later, they really were going to have to learn how to live too.

Even as he lets out another laugh, he lets his guard down further to lean his head against his other self, allowing their temples to touch.]


If we thought Rey looked flustered while introducing the Captain to us. I really can't wait to see how she'll look when he meets the others. No way is this staying a secret in this family for long.

[And if he happened to let it slip who their sister was dating, oh well. He hadn't been sworn to secrecy, just made to promise to be nice to Steve.]
oldmanfive: (134 | Season 2)

D= I swear you are trying to break me with feels here!

[personal profile] oldmanfive 2020-09-19 08:00 am (UTC)(link)
[ Five finds himself lightly laughing at his 'twin''s comment because yikes they did look terrible in that painting, what picture did they even use as a reference for that awful thing? ]

God yes, I'm tired of seeing the damn thing every time we walk into that room. Though Ben's statue might be a little harder to get rid of without everyone hearing us.

[ There's a part of him that thinks maybe they should ask Ben if he wants to help get rid of it. It can't exactly be a great reminder of everything he went through after all. All the morbid reminders that still haunted the Hargreeves home really needed to go. Especially if they were all going to move on with their lives and try and actually be a family again.

As his other self, continue leaning into him, Five lets his eyes close for a moment. It's a rarity to let himself relax even a little, especially without the aid of alcohol. However being with his other self is more soothing than he could have thought it would be. While they both have been trying more with their siblings, especially their sisters. But it is still hard not to hold back with them. However he finds himself chuckling again when the other does an almost spot on impersonation of Diego.]


Okay that is a little too easy to picture. Given his obsession with saving JFK, I can't imagine that he doesn't have a man crush on Captain America.

[ Though as his counterpart continues, his mood slowly sobers again as he can sense where this line of thought is going already. His breath involuntarily shudders and his eyes widen at the memory he had been avoiding, the one of their siblings dying their third death in that barn in Dallas. As he feels the other press against his side, he suddenly wraps his arm around his other self and embraces him. ]

I can't keep watching them die either.

[ He whispers, his own voice on the verge of breaking. That last time had been far too close, they had only just barely enough life in them to save everyone. They really couldn't afford any more close calls like that again. ]
oldmanfive: (62 | Season 2)

don't mind me, just drowning in feelings over here!

[personal profile] oldmanfive 2020-09-19 06:50 pm (UTC)(link)
No, I wasn't implying we be sneaky, it's late, I meant in the we'd make a lot of noise just the two of trying to get rid it. Probably, though I bet it annoys Ben the most, since it really doesn't look like him. Just like the shitty painting barely resembles us.

[His is tired, they both are, so he can't fault his other self for taking his statement the other way. They are usually secretive about everything, so it makes sense to assume that was what he meant. Besides in their current position, they couldn't exactly look at each other's expressions to really read each other like they had done earlier in Rey's apartment. ]

Heh, well if Diego went gay for anyone, Captain America isn't a bad choice. Speaking of which, I really get the sense that he could see through the twins lie that Rey fed him.

[ He slightly grimaces because they barely understood what was going on and they were in the thick of it, trying to explain something like this to someone with absolutely no reference points was really going to make them sound insane. More so than they already did at times.

He squeezes his eyes shut, trying to well the burning sensation away, but really it isn't working. His grip on the other Five tightens, even as he remains silent for a long moment, not trusting his voice any longer. Finally he inhales shakily, trying to keep the tremble out of voice and failing. ]


Yeah, but getting them all to listen at the same time...it's such a struggle. [The Hargreeves are shit at listening as a group, but he knows he doesn't have it in him to tell them all individually what happened in that barn in Dallas. Every time he remembers how close they were to the actual end, he just feels sick to his stomach and wants to retreat further into himself. ]

If I have to see them die one more time, I'm going to really lose it.

[ He just knows, what little is left of their precious sanity is going to completely shatter beyond repair.]
oldmanfive: (82 | Season 2)

the assault of feelings continues....

[personal profile] oldmanfive 2020-09-20 10:30 am (UTC)(link)
Fair enough, tomorrow then. [ He willingly concedes as he is just too exhausted to really give it anymore thought. There really isn't a rush. Nothing that urgently needs to be dealt with, so it is easy to put it aside. ]

I suppose his case is as close as it can get to ours. Though he was frozen for 67 years, rather than trapped in an apocalyptic wasteland in the future.

[ He points out, but he does agree that if anyone could understand or even empathize with their situation, it is likely Steve Rogers. Though it honestly would be a nice change of pace to have someone understand rather than just automatically question their sanity which has been the case so many times before.

As they sit in silence and he struggles to keep the cracks from turning into chasms over the memories of seeing their siblings die over and over and over again on them. The harder he fights to keep his tears at bay, the more his eyes sting and burn. Though once his other self turns toward him to fully embrace him, he can't help but lose what is left of his resolve.

The remainder of his facade breaking away as he chokes out a sob and buries his face against the other's shoulder. He just can't hold it in any longer as he wraps both his arms around his counterpart and hugs him tightly, practically clinging. 58 years old and deep, deep down, he still feels like that lost thirteen year old boy.]
oldmanfive: (29 | Season 1)

clearly they need more hugs!

[personal profile] oldmanfive 2020-09-20 07:19 pm (UTC)(link)
From the sounds of it, the drug they used on him was super experimental. They had no way of knowing what all the side effects of it would be in the long run.

[ He only really knows this much because he had read some of the articles in the morning papers that were gushing about Steve Rogers and he had a mind to read a little further after just for the sake of curiosity. He hadn't expected that he would run into the man himself, let alone find out he was the one his sister was seeing.

Really it had been a long time coming. There was only so long a person could bury their emotions before they finally found a way to surface again. It just took seeing their family die two more times in the span of a few weeks to open this particular floodgate. So in spite of himself, the tears don't seem to want to stop.

It really isn't lost on him that he is essentially being comforted by himself, but maybe this is what they both needed? Because they certainly wouldn't let themselves be this raw with any of their siblings if they could help it. Slowly as he feels the sobs beginning to subside, he also feels his twin lightly rubbing his back. It strikes him again just how starved they really are for touch, but again it is hard to let others close enough.

As the other pulls back, he lets his own grip slack, so that they can see each other. He looks just as much of a mess as his twin, but he manages a watery smile and small nod at his question.]


Yeah...

[ Instinctively he sits back a little more to wipe at his face with the sleeve of his jacket. He's still exhausted, more so now, but he really did just need the release and from the looks of it, so did his counterpart. His voice is still shaky when he speaks again.]

Should we...head back to the house?
oldmanfive: (85 | Season 2)

the siblings got to find them first!

[personal profile] oldmanfive 2020-09-21 07:34 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Instinctively he continues to wipe at his face, before running his fingers through his fringe pushing it to the side out of his face. It's been a long strange day in all honestly. From learning that his sister is dating a legendary superhero to ending up having a small breakdown in the presence of his other self.

He had no clue, if this would mean that it be a little easier to approach their siblings later. It seemed like it would probably go better for them, having the additional support of themselves to finally tell their siblings what happened in that barn in Dallas. Or maybe it would lead to yet another breakdown on their part, especially if their siblings didn't listen to them.

He found himself slightly huffing at his twin's reply.]
Heh, I probably couldn't stay awake even if I wanted too.

[ He candidly admits, only because he is talking to his counterpart. The exhaustion he feels, runs down to his bones. If the library floor were more comfortable, he would likely already be passed out. He's content to sit a bit longer as they slowly compose themselves, this is probably the most emotional either has allowed themselves to be in ages. So it has felt extra draining in a way, but not necessarily a bad way.

At the other's question he simply nods as he moves to grip his arm, innately aware of what he wishes them to do. Using the last of their energy together for a jump back to the house makes perfect sense as individually they would either botch the jump and not be able to do it all.

Once they blink back to the house landing themselves in the living room of all places, Five moves to drop himself down on the couch, because there is no way he making it to the room just yet. The other night after he got back from Rey's he had stayed up most of the night in the library, unsure of what they should do about the room situation.]


What do you want to do about the room? If you want to keep it, I can take one of the guest rooms.

[Yeah they could share the room, but maybe it would be less confusing for the others, if they tried having two different places in the house? ]
oldmanfive: (66 | Season 1)

Oh my heart, these two are too precious right now <3

[personal profile] oldmanfive 2020-09-22 09:55 am (UTC)(link)
[ As Five sits on the couch, his posture starts to slouch, he places one hand over his midsection, while the other rest to the side of him. Despite his best efforts, his eyes start falling shut. Though he manages to open his eyes and offer his twin a smile at that proclamation. A soft scoff escaping his lips. ]

I know, but clearly you've been in this timeline longer than I have, old man. So I was giving my elder the choice.

[ While his tone remains tired, there's warmth in it, making it clear that he is joking. Even as he lightly nudges his shoulder against his twin's shoulder. Maybe it is the sleep deprivation, but he feels a sudden burst of warmth in his chest at his counterpart's suggestion of finding a new room or two rooms next to each other. They spent so much time in survival mode, being wary of everything around them, that trust didn't come easy to them anymore. It makes him fully realize that the show of trust that has happened between them is a rare commodity. He actually feels touched that his twin is considering his feelings, despite them being technically the same person.]

Mm, that's not a bad idea. [ He replies in a soft voice, a definite sleepiness to his tone. But he sounds content and that's what counts. He lets his head lean back against the couch cushions as his eyes close again. He feels Five stretch beside him, while yawning and lightly chuckles as he realizes they probably aren't going to a bed any time soon. He slightly startles at the sound of Five's shoes clattering against the floor, but his expression quickly softens as his twin lies his head against his shoulder. Lightly he rests his cheek atop his twin's hair, letting his eyes close again. He's far too tired to give a damn about his own shoes or even trying to readjust his position on the couch. It's fine. He's slept in worse positions, but at least this time, he's not alone.]

Goodnight, Five.